Well, its finally a new year. 2009. I feel like the year went by so fast! I also feel like I've been here in NC forever now. I still absolutely love it here. I love the weather, the people, my jobs.. everything.
Well, I guess there is one thing I do not love about being here. Since I've moved down here, I feel like I've had a constant cold. I attributed it to constantly working with kids.. and everyone knows, kids are ALWAYS sick. Well, it still hasn't gone away.. except for the 6 days I was in Pittsburgh for Christmas. I was perfectly fine then and the second I stepped back into my apartment my head filled with snot again.
So, I've come to the realization that there's something in my apartment that I'm allergic to.. which is weird because I've never had allergies before. I'm going to go to the dr. and find out what's wrong, but I hope its something I can easily fix or change. I'm really worried they'll tell me its Lucy and I don't know how I'd handle that because this has been so bad I've considered removing my head and vacuuming out all the snot if possible. I even went out looking for those little thingies that suck the snot out of babies noses for my own use, but I strangly couldn't find one anywhere. Hopefully I'll find a solution, and soon!
Aside from that, Christmas went well in Pgh!
Nick and I flew down and while the flight was alright, the landing was horrible. It took a couple tries because the wind was so bad but we made it. We stayed with Nick's family for the week and I had a lot of fun with them. Nick's little sister got a puppy for Christmas and she was so cute with the puppy.. for the first couple minutes.. hah. She just constantly felt the need to hold it and it was funny because the family was very obviously all getting annoyed at it, but she's 6 and that's how 6yr olds are.
Things with Nick are still great though. I'm so lucky I found someone who I'm so compatible with. He's really such a great guy. :) (Brit~ you'll find yours too.. and you'll KNOW when its right).
I feel like the week we were in Pgh went by SO FAST because we were constantly running around doing something. It was good though.
So, on another note, we all found out Amanda is 34 weeks pregnant now which puts her due date at the end of Jan/beginning of Feb instead of March. Doctors are so stupid sometimes. You would think that they could tell you a correct due date right away instead of realizing when its 4 weeks away. Woops. It just totally freaked my sister out because she didn't quite have everything and everything put together yet so I guess she finished that today. I'm so excited to be an aunt.. the baby is going to be Ayden Paul James Dusenberry. I love the name Ayden. She's a snot for stealing it from me. Oh well though.
Alright well, I better get to sleep.. not that I have to get up or anything. We got back to NC on Tuesday and I don't work until next Monday and the sitting around doing nothing is driving me crazy. Oh well though. I'll enjoy it while I still can!!

well, its been apparently 45 weeks since my last update, so i figured i better get on this before i hit the "it's been a year" mark.
i moved with nick to cary, nc to follow a job i got down here. i LOVE cary, nc. it's a great town, we live in a great apartment, the weather is nice, and the people are nice. we're both coaching and cheering at a gym called premier athletics of clayton and its awesome. i love the group of other coaches as well as the team we cheer on, so its a great time. i'm getting over some tumbling blocks i've had since, well, i started tumbling, which is great and the people i'm with are very supportive about it.
during the day i'm working at a school called bright horizons. i work with small children and will follow the same group of kids up until kindergarden. i love my kids. currently i have 8 between the ages of 6 months and 15 months (3 girls, 5 boys) and on jan 5th (my bday!) i will get two more kids (both boys). i'm not sure how it will work out, especially as they get older, with having so many more boys than girls, but its alright. i LOVE my kids. the job is stressful at times and great at times, however, it is breaking my back and killing my knees. oh well though.
things with nick are still good. we still get along great, which is awesome and we are hardly ever not getting along. he helps me keep my sanity and i love him so much.. even after almost 2 and a half years. :)
my sister is having a baby soonish! she's having a boy and is due march 1st. the current name she has is aaden (or aiden) paul-james dusenberry. i'm pretty sure that isn't set in stone yet though. i'm really excited to be an aunt but i'm sad that she's in PA while i'm in NC. i'm still going to be the favorite aunt though.. no worries about that!
alright well, i think that's a good bit of newly updated info. i have chinese food waiting for me so it's time to go consume that.
toodles :)

finally.. i'm all done with this semester.
i'm very pleased with myself and how i did this semester. i had very good attendance and did all of my work and got it all in on time. i think i got all A's and B's with the exception of one class.. and that class i have NO idea.. which sucks.
my next semester doesn't start til jan 14th, so i'll have a nice little break. i'm going to sign up for an independent study for one class and test out of a intro to computer class then after that, i'll only have one semester left! woo!! i can't wait to be done.
i'm worried next semester will be rough getting though. this semester i had all classes that i wanted to take, so i enjoyed going. next semester i have a ton of core classes that i HAVE to take, so hopefully i'll have good professors that help me to actually want to go. also, i was told that around the middle of next semester is when i should start looking for a job and applying to places to start the end of the summer. ack. thats kinda scary. i have so many ideas of jobs i would want to have, but i can't really picture myself doing any of it. i feel like i should still be in high school and i'm almost 23. i feel old.
growing up is scary.
alright, time to shower and relax until work at 4.

well, i'm almost done with this semester. i'm very proud of myself for how i got through it with good attendance. i dont think i missed more than 3 or 4 of any class all semester. my grades are going to be good too! i'm so impressed with myself. i'm just so ready to be done and i guess i'm realizing that in order to actually be done i have to get past with decent grades. my last day of classes and finals is on monday.. which is kinda weird, but oh well. i'm excited. we have off until jan 14th which is a really nice, long break. i'm not so excited by the fact that i have 3 different 5-7 page psych papers due, a 3ish page science paper due, and a take home psych final... all due on monday.. which will not go so well with how busy i am this weekend.
tomorrow i'm leaving for a cheerleading competition in cleveland. we're staying friday night and the competition is on sat then we're driving back saturday night. hopefully the roads stay good. i wouldn't do so well with driving in the snow. i think my girls will do alright, they've been doing amazing all year so far, which is great.
i'm a little sad that after this cleveland trip, we're only going on one more away competition (to savannah, ga). i feel like last year we went away like every other weekend, and this year there was only three away comps. oh well though.
i miss my britters. she needs to move to pa to keep me company. i need some girl time, which i dont really get.. unless its with my new friend chris, but its just not the same.
alright, well, time to go watch some law and order. woo!
toodles!
ps. not having control over the heat in my apartment sucks so bad. it takes a lot for me to be overly hot, especially in the winter, but the heat in here is so high i feel like i'm going to die.

i'm the most inconsistant updater ever. i should actually win an award for it.
not too much is new though.

i have about 4 of each class left, which is so exciting! the only class i'm worried about is my natural science class, which isnt going so well, but i'm doing SO well in the rest of them. i have like two million papers all due in the next week, including a 50 page thesis paper that i havent started yet.. oops..

this weekend my girls are going to VA for a competition and i'm hoping to get to see brit if shes not busy. woo. it should be fun. then next weekend no competition then the following we go to ohio. i love traveling to away competitions. we're going to one in savannah, ga that should be interesting.

my thumb hurts uber bad, so i'm going to have to end this early. i chipped the bone in my thumb and it hurts like hades which makes it really hard to type and even harder to write.

oh well.

toodles!

well, i now am dog sitting bartelbe (sp?) who belongs to selenna and terry and i'm surprised that he and lucy havent killed each other. i though lucy would be really upset about the fact that there is a dog in the house but she's actually dealing with it pretty well. they both slept in bed with me last night, one under my arm and the other at the other arm. it was kinda cute. i'm having fun with him too. he's a sweetie. it is just making me want a dog even more.
on the other hand, bartelbe HATES guys. anytime nick comes around he growls, snarles, and barks frantically at him. i think its entertaining but i dont think nick enjoys it so much.
tomorrow night ein joins the group. ein is my sister's dog. so i'll have two dogs and a cat wondering around the little apartment. it should be interesting though. i have bart. until wednesday and i just have ein until monday.
i want my own puppy.
well, thats all. just a lil daily update. time to get ready for work. woo...

hmm. well lets see.

classes started up again. i'm back at point park and graduating in june.. and nothing will stop me from graduating then.

i was really lucky and ended up with a really really good schedule, i have child and family therapy, history of western civilization, world literature, counseling theories and practices, seminar in human sciences, and natural sciences. i have a handful of classes i love and really good professors and the classes i dislike i have friends in it with me to goof off with.. so it should be an interesting semester.

i having some issues with some things, but i'm a freak and i don't exactly know how to explain it.. but whatever.

i have to dog sit this coming weekend, which, kinda sucks because i NEEDED to go home (to state college) to get things together for my sister's wedding with her, but whatever. its her dog i have to watch so i guess i'll just get the things done here.

i have a cold and i think i have strep. yuck. i need to go to the doctor's but i'm too lazy and i hate doctors. i tried to go to an appt today but i got done with classes and such later than i thought i would so i missed it (and got yelled at). oh well.

well, that was my update. i really am going to start using this more often, now that i have more going on to talk about. thats all!

its 330am and i cant sleep, so i guess its time for an update. tryouts have been going on at the gym and tomorrow (morning/afternoon) is the last of them for this season coming up. it starts and ends so quickly. our last competition was pretty much last weekend, this weekend are tryouts for new teams (everyone has to retryout) and then practices start up on tuesday. not much of a vacation, but oh well. we get one in the summer, for a week.

i'm getting frustrated because the semester is/has ended for normal (non-online students) and if i would have just stuck with point park i would have just now graduated. in a way, i feel like a failure because i didnt graduate with everyone i started point park with and because i procrastinate so much with my online classes.. then again i feel like i'm not at all ready to be a part of the "real world" yet with a real job and real grown up things. i dont know. i want to be done and not have to think about school at all anymore, and i want to never be done at the same time, and that's frustrating to me.

not being able to fall asleep also frustrates me..

anyways,

i cant believe its already mid-may ish. i feel like it was just february the other day and freezing outside, now i'm sweating and happy with the weather. time passes so quickly.

my sister's wedding is coming up. i still can't believe she's getting married. in a way, it also makes me feel like a failure. i'm still struggling to get through school and graduate and working at a cheerleading gym while my younger sister is graduating the end of this month, getting a real job that pays about $60,000 a year, getting married, and wanting to start a family right away. her bridal shower is july 1st and i think her getting married is really really going to hit me then. i'm sure she's so stressed out because shes the first one of us getting married so she has to put up with so much crap over little things from my (very conservative/traditional) family. (for example, her lease on her current apt in state college is up the end of june and shes getting a job out here in pgh so her and jonas were going to just get an apt out here the beginning of july... well, my family thinks that's absolutely unacceptable, to be living together before marriage.. they're getting married in sept. my fam wants her to get her own apt until then, and then he can move in.. and thats just so ridiculous.)

oh well.

i hate that when i have to be awake earlier than i ever am is the only time i have problems falling asleep. i still have plenty of time to get a good night's sleep, but i'll probably be laying around, counting sheep, and playing with lucy til 6 in the morning. it sucks.

let's see.. what else is new in my life...

not much. i live a fairly boring life.

nick and i have almost been together for a year now (it'll be a year on june 1st). we haven't had any real fights or arguements which, for me is incredible because usually after a couple months i get agitated easily, but i haven't.. and he hasn't which is great. he's an awesome guy. it actually annoys other couples we hang out with because we don't yell at each other or argue about stupid little things. we're just both very laid back people, so not much bothers me and when something bothers me i know i can just tell him and he'll fix it or vise versa. i'm really happy with him. :)

alright, its almost 4am now so its time to try again to lay down and get some sleep. wish me luck..

i woke up early today (1030am, instead of 1pm) and now i'm bored and not sure what to do with myself.. hmm.. this is interesting..

Today is gma's birthday, so i'm going to try to ditch out of tumbling class that i teach tonight to go to dinner with her.

Because of her birthday I've spent quite some time this morning thinking about age and life and such. I'm starting to realize that my age is saying that I'm an adult, but I'm not sure I feel that way.. but then, after watching how some of our girl's parents act on a daily basis, maybe this is how adults act.. fun adults anyways.

World's is coming up so quickly. I can hardly wait. I think its going to be a very exciting trip and I hope to come home with a nice tan (or anything other than the pasty white skin i have right now).

This is just a mini update because I need to hurry and get in the shower because I need to run out and buy a birthday present and card before classes start.

Shower time!

sometimes, i just want to scream.

so i'm back on track again with my life after two busy weeks in a row. the first weekend i was in cincinatti, oh for a competition and didn't get back into town until very early monday morning then spent my week unpacking and repacking for atlanta, ga which i just got back from. both were very exciting competitions, but now i'm just ready to spend my weekend relaxing. we got a bid for a world's competition at cincinatti which is awesome because world's is definitely going to be one of the best experiences ever. that competition is in orlando, fl at the end of april (it's also our next dance competition.. so i have some time to chill out with dance) then the weekend after that we go to baltimore, md for final destination (its like a fake world's competition). both of which i'm oober excited for. the next couple weekends are just cheer competitions (some of which i'll compete at and some of which only my girls will be competing at) which is a little less stressful.

i have some hardcore cleaning to do and i need to go get my kitty from my grandparents. she's been with them for almost three weeks now because i've been out of town and i miss her SO much. i think i might rearrange my room/apartment again sometime soon. i'm getting bored with how it is now.

i went out to dinner at chili's last night and accidentally left my phone there, so i'm kinda going crazy. we ate there so late last night that we didnt want to go all the way back out there once we got back into oakland and realized it was missing.. so i'm going to pick it up before i go to the gym today.. and i can't wait. i have a severe emotional attachment to my cell phone and when its not with my i freak out..

its starting to get warmer outside, which is very exciting (knock on wood). i wasnt handling the 2 degree weather (that was occuring over the past couple weeks) very well. the gym was colder than it was outside and all of our pipes were freezing meaning no water or toilet..

i think i'm going to start looking for a job during the day just to give me some extra money and to fill up my schedule a little more. i'm supposed to be taking online classes right now but the paperwork still hasnt gone through, so i'm going to call them probably tomorrow so i can start them sometime this week. once i start them i NEED to make sure i stay on track and submit at least one thing a week.. that will get me done with them in 10-12 weeks, depending on the class, which i think is something i can accomplish. after i finish these classes i'm going to contact point park again and try to take my last semester during the summer there so i can graduate with my psych degree. i'm going to try to do an intership through a school as a counselor but i'm not sure how that'll work out..

alright, time to go get myself dressed and ready for the gym (so i can go get my phone).

toodles!

i havent updated in forever.. woops. not too much is new though.

i'm the worst procrastinator ever, in case that wasnt already known.

ever since i stopped drinking soda and caffeinated products i've been falling asleep a lot easier which is really nice and my body has been waking me up at 8am every morning, which, isn't the best thing, but it's not so bad. ive also been taking vitamins and attempting to eat a little healthier. the last couple days i've also done some work out routines thanks to comcast exercise programs and i'm going to try to keep up with it, but who knows how long that'll last.

we FINALLY have our choreography for the open cheer team this sunday. 8am-330pm kinda sucks, especially since i'll be at the gym and constantly doing things until 1030pm which already makes me cranky but i feel like if i'm starting at 8 i'll be super cranky.

i'm also stongly considering being all done with jazz after this next competition and all done with hip hop after the competition in atlanta. its just so expensive and then they want to start having practices three days a week instead of one and i just dont have the energy to be at the gym an extra 6 hours a week. i keep trying to quit jazz but everytime i try people think that i'm just kidding and they just tell me i'm not quitting. i just feel bad because three other people just quit, leaving our team size to 9 people, which in itself sucks for the team. uggh. oh well, i'm sure i'll figure something out.

i cleaned my apartment last night! i feel like i clean like every week or so but my place always gets sooo messy so fast. all i have left to do now though is change my light bulbs because i have like half of them burnt out and i have to vacuum and i'm all clean again! oh, and i need to change the litter box, but i try not to think about that. ive heard that you can toilet train some cats, maybe i could work on that with lucy. hah.. i'm sure it'd work out well..

alright, time to go entertain myself with some myspace or pinkisthenewblog.. toodles.

i suck at life.

i dislike christmas. its okay though, it'll all be over soon.

today i was oober bored so i got dressed up super cute just so i could go to the bank and the state store because i have nothing else to do. nick is in WV with his family until later tonight, so hopefully he'll be back so he can see my oober cuteness, which, rarely happens. if he gets back early enough we're going to go see the good shepard, which i've been dying to see since the previews started. i'm not sure why though. it just looks very intriguing.

tomorrow i think i'm going to my aunt's house for dinner for xmas eve for an hourish. i can only be around them for so long until i go insane. for christmas, i'm not sure what i'll be doing. i may drive up to state college for the day to see my family, but i've been telling myself for the last three days that i'm going to drive up and it hasn't happened so far. i just don't like driving three hours there and three hours back to just sit around my house doing nothing. i feel like if i'm going to drive all the way out there then it should be to do something, but my family never wants to do anything except sit around.. or sleep. if i don't drive up though i'll probably end up laying around doing nothing, which i'm fine with doing, except i've been sitting around doing nothing for the past two days and i'm not really the kind of person who can just sit with myself for days at a time not doing anything, after awhile it starts to drive me insane. oh well though..

hmm. i just realized i have some more christmas shopping i need to finish. i'm slightly terrified to go to the mall the day before xmas eve though, especially alone, mostly because it'll be a madhouse. i might have to suck it up and deal with it though, because i *really* need something for my grandparents because i'll see them tomorrow at my aunt's. bah.

let's see, what else is new...

i have been having weird/bad dreams again. i always have weird dreams, but then every so often i get a cluster of really bad, graphic, disturbing dreams and ive been having them lately. i wonder why that is. one of the ones i had last nigt/this morning for example included me watching a girl i work with cut open and eat the intestines out of one of our girls at the gym while i was hiding under a table and watching the entire time. it was really disguesting. oh well though.

well, i think that's all for now. i might go venture out to the mall in hopes of finding grandparent-y gifts and not being trampled by large clusters of frantic people. wish me luck!!

blah.

i think i'm defective. i kinda wish there was a place that i could be sent back and fixed so i was no longer defective.

oh well. i guess i'll just stay right here and keep being the defective person i am and always will be.

blah.

nick is sitting at the table next to me doing a sudoku puzzle and reading the paper and he looks absolutely adorable.

i just thought i would let everyone know.

i have serious stress issues.

i think i'm going to die from being overly stressed before i hit 25.. is that possible? if not, i may be breaking some kind of medical record.

i hate not knowing where my life is going.. if its going anywhere at all.

i hate knowing my younger sister is graduating in the spring, has already started interviews at a "real" job (all over PA and OH), and is getting married in Sept of next year. i'm actually insanely jealous of her life and how its all planned out and how everything is coming together so nicely for her. i hate that i'm older than her and will still be in school for a little longer and that i have no thoughts of even getting a real job, ever. stupid sister.

i hate that i'm jealous of my younger sister and her accomplishments and her goals and life plans.

life is not fair.

thanksgiving day went surprisingly well. i got up and nick and i went to my grandparents for lunch then we went to his parent's place for dinner. both places were a good time with good food.

tomorrow i have a fairly busy day.. we have to go over routines for a camp that ej and i are doing then i have hip hop practice then i have open gym (which i plan on tumbling at) then nick and i are going out for julie's birthday.. which is very exciting. i have to do a camp in greensburg with ej saturday morning that i really really dont want to do.. mostly because it'll just consist of teaching sidelines, which are something i really dont know anything about, but whatever.. i'll get paid which will be nice!

i think there's something wrong with me because i'm CONSTANTLY hungry. i'm like starving to death even after eating a huge lunch and dinner. hmm. oh well.

alright, well i'm off to find some food. wish me luck...

PS. I LOVE NICK OLESON. :)

being stressed = stomach ulcer = being more stressed = throwing up. blah.

i feel lied to.

blah.

i'm having a really rough day.. :(